I Feel Too Much.

09/17/14

I feel too much.

I care too much.

As a result I'm doomed to a life where people don't feel or care about anything as much as I do. I just want to find someone, one single soul that cares for me the way I care about them and I'm fairly certain that'll never happen and I will be alone and unhappy forever. Not to mention constantly disappointed.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I have no idea what to think, how to feel. I feel like everything I thought I was sure of in my life is bursting into flames right before my eyes and there is nothing I can do to stop it. I wish I had someone to hold me and kiss me and tell me they love me and that everything is going to be okay, and mean every word of it. Instead I feel lost and alone and completely lacking direction. Every day I wake up and go through the motions but none of it feels like it has any real purpose.  I am questioning everything and not sure of anything anymore, including whether I want to pursue photography as a career.

I love LA as a whole but being here has really put things in perspective.